Most of the people that knows me knows that I was dreaming to have a boy that was going to be named
Sebastian. It never ocurred to me the possibility of having all girls and not having my baby boy. As my first pregnancy was a girl, it was something really "natural" for me to think that the second one was going to be a boy. We even had cloth and toys that we were saving for when I had my boy.
When I was pregnant with Camila, and after tons of ultrasounds (because she wasnt cooperating), we learned that we were having another girl. I wont lie. I was dissapointed. I was happy that I was going to give my daughter the sister that I never had (with three brothers, I always dreamed having a sister), and I was thrilled that I was going to get the girls to share the same toys and stuff, but still dissapointed. Of course, hearing people saying:
"Another girl?? Awwww, Im sorry", like not having a boy after a girl was really the worst thing in the world.
So, not big deal... I was getting my two girls "close in age", and then after a few years I was going to try for my boy, or maybe two boys... But God had other plans... Despite birth control, I got pregnant after 5 months of postpartum and even though I was
dreaming about a boy, I
knew it was a girl. Deep down in my heart, I knew that another girl was going to be a perfect addition to our family, but I couldnt help but to want my
Sebastian. As you guys know, it didnt happened. Another girl was on the way, and I wasnt sure what to feel... Dont get me wrong... I LOVE having all girls, and I think it is the best thing that has happened to us. I dont even know how I will even fit a boy in this house.
My feelings were mixed, mostly because I knew I
had to get a tubal, and Sebastian was never going to be born. How WRONG I was...
Sebastian IS born... And he is Camila's age... (the pictures are not that good, but this is the best I have):
Now, dont you dare to think that hubby had a kid with another woman... Or that I secretely had a baby boy and never showed to you guys... He is the son of one of hubby's cousins and I really dont know what is happening to me, but I want him!! Maybe it is my old need of having a boy, but to me he looks like Camila's twin. I told hubby: We need to have him!! Can we adopt him?? LOL
